Monday, April 23, 2007

My dreams, they've got to kiss, because I dont get sleep, no

As the title suggests, I haven't been sleeping much again. I haven't had a full night of sleep in at least 5 weeks at the moment. I've gotten used to the dull throbbing headache that's hiding behind my forehead, but I really hate the feeling that I have sand in my eyes constantly. I'm sort of stuck in the middle of a fight between my mind and body. I have either been too full of energy to sleep, or my mind has been going a hundred miles an hour keeping me staring at the ceiling at night.

I almost feel bad for my coworkers because I'm a bit crabby anyway, but lately I've been really touchy. I don't really care much. Erik in a crabby mood seems to make them work harder to keep me from having to do their jobs for them. I can live with that tradeoff. I don't really have to worry about pissing off any girlfriends or friends in general right now either. I'm too tired to do much most of the time.

I have been pushing myself at the gym lately. I started doing that hoping that I could make my body tired enough for sleep. That didn't work since I seem to get my energy back pretty quickly. I have found something that surprised me lately. My back is much stronger than I thought. I can comfortably lift my body weight plus 10%, and can almost pull +20% if I'm really pushing it. I suppose that's what happens when you keep the weight of the world on your shoulders. *laughs*

Hopefully I can get some rest soon since I'm going on a brief vacation in two weeks. Would hate to be a zombie on my vacation. I'm pretty close to that now. Naps, nookie and narcotics are needed again, I think. I don't think I'll be getting any of that anytime soon. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

Here's the song from last time. It's a cover of the original, but good stuff anyway.

Land of Confusion by Genesis (cover by Disturbed)

Anyone care to guess todays song?


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