Dried up, tied, and dead to the world
I haven't been posting lately as you probably can tell. I'm not really wanting to deal with all the shit out in the world right now. I haven't been answering my phone (not that anyone calls me) since last Saturday. I didn't go to my usual bar visits on Tuesday and Wednesday. I haven't even gone to the gym.
I just don't want to come face to face with people that piss me off. I'm angry, frustrated, and agitated. I could deal with friends who want to come over (not that they want to) but that's about it.
I've been gone from the various groups I'm a part of for a week, and only one person has bothered to check up on me. Color me replaceable. Pretty fucking pitiful, eh?
I know what will get me out of this mood. We all know that isn't going to happen, tho.
I have to build up my willpower so I don't kill anyone at the Brewer game on Friday. I promised my mom that I'd go with her. I'm already regretting making that promise, but I always keep my word. I hope it's not a bat giveaway day...
Sorry for the angry post and the long pauses. I probably won't be posting again for a while, but you never know. Miracles could happen. Yeah, right.
posted by Erik @ 1:16 PM
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8 Comments:
I know how that goes. I once stayed away from my usual bar for a year. In all that time not one person called or came to my house.
chin up. sometimes you need to crawl in your shell-- makes for a different perspective every now and then.
Go to the game with Mom. Have a dog with stadium sauce and all will be good again. No bats, Mom is safe.
Confidential to DJW, I did call you in that year you were gone. You never had your machine on or never answered the phone. I gave up after a while.
kind of hard to be 'confidential' when you post it here, isn't it?
DJW- The continued similarities are starting to scare me. *chuckles*
That Girl- Thanks for dropping by and reminding me of an appropriate song lyric.
I've felt the hate rise up in me,
Kneel down to clear the stone of leaves,
I wander out where you can't see,
Inside my shell I wait and bleed.
Bonus points for anyone how knows it.
Gambino- Mom is safe anyway. I only want to lash out at all the stupid fucks out there. Same reason I can comment here without getting irked. Gotta love smart people. I wish there were more around me.
I know, it is scary!! I read your posts and think Damn, that could be me writing that.
Honey you really need to do something to get yourself out of this funk! I'm worrying about you!!
If you need someone to talk to email me.......csmopolgrl@aol.com
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